Great is his faithfulness;

      His mercies begin afresh each morning.

"The Lord is my portion," says my soul,

"therefore I will hope in Him."

The Lord is good to those who wait for Him,

to the soul who seeks Him.

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[Lamentations 3:23-25]

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There is such a tension in waiting on the Lord.

I'm graduating in May and have zero clue as to what my life will look like around that time.

I have these beautiful, rare moments when I think about how free I am from the worry of controlling my future.

God wants the very best for me, and of that I am confident.

In these moments, I can sit back and enjoy my days as a college student, knowing that in a few months the Lord has something wonderful planned for me...another adventure to take on.

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Then the other ninety nine percent of the time, I am utterly terrified of the reality of the "real world" that begins on May 12th.

The questions, oh the questions start flooding my head..

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Will I get into the study abroad in Spain?

What if I don't, what will I do?

What if I move home...start looking for a Big Kid job?

What if I live in East Lansing and keep leading YoungLife?

What if...

What if...

What if...

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'What if' have become my code words for 'if God doesn't come through for me I will...'

I mean seriously, these plans I am making in my mind have become back up plans in case completely trusting in God's goodness doesn't work out.

That is such a sinful attitude to have, Sara...and it is time to change.

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So here we go, I will continue to fully seek Him who has plans for me. Plans to prosper me, not to harm me. Plans to give me hope and a future. I will wait on the Lord, no matter how impatient or weary I become.