I am amazed at how many times I desperately need God to take over my life. 

I have been battling depression for a while now, and these past few weeks have been incredibly rough. 

I thought it was under control with the medicine I have been taking, but there is more to getting through depression than just a pill every night.

Lately I have been leaning on friends and worldly things to help me through this....

But it hasn't been working.

Something is wrong with my heart, and I know that no one can fix it but God.

As much as I am thankful for my friends and family, they can't compare and they won't be able to fill my heart the way the Lord does. 

I have realized this in these past few days, and can see once again how great my need for God is. 

I realize that I am not whole without Him being sovereign through everything in my life. 

I can try to compartmentalize my faith all I want, but it just won't work.

God doesn't work like that.

No lukewarm faith.

You're either in, or you're out.

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I become lukewarm all the time. Living my life MY way.

Then God rescues me.

Again.

Again.

and Again.

Then I drown in my depression again and turn away yet again.

And he rescues me again.

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GOD'S GRACE MAKES ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE TO US BECAUSE WE DON'T DESERVE IT, AND IT IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL gift IN THE WORLD.
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"Rather than a pyramid, I want to be the center of a mobile, where everything in your life - your friends, family, occupation, thoughts, activities - is connected to me but moves with the wind, in and out and back and forth, in an incredible dance of being." The Shack.